Where is Debbie?

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I last blogged three weeks ago. Time has flown by. Hope you had a glorious Easter. He is risen! He is risen indeed! I had a lovely Easter with my kids home from college and my family over for lunch. A sense of some normalcy has returned. Missed mom a lot on Easter. Let myself grieve and still enjoy the day. Easter is that tension of grief and celebration. Jesus died for our sins on Friday and rose again on Easter morning. We grieve for our sin and His sacrifice. We celebrate for our hope and eternal life in Him.

Where have I been? Starting a new job. For the past three years, I worked for New Horizons Learning Group as an instructor of Microsoft Applications. I learned so much teaching Word, Excel, PowerPoint, Outlook, VBA, SQL, Access and much much more. I am grateful for the on-the-job training. It helped me get to where I am today. Where am I today?

I work for Goodwill Long Beach – or Goodwill SOLAC – Serving the people of Southern Los Angeles County. I am here to create a new program to help those who have barriers to employment. My title is Digital Skills Instructor. I will be teaching courses to beginners and mid-skilled level adults. They classes will be weeks for 4 hours a week. I am developing curriculum. I am meeting with potential students. I have the opportunity to mentor, teach, and invest in lives daily. God opened this door for me so clearly.

I had been praying for a job where I could teach a group of students over time not just one day and they were gone. I wanted to invest in students. I wanted to write curriculum to meet specific needs. After many “no’s” in job seeking, this was a big YES. I realized that all the “no’s” were because God knew I would have said yes to the wrong ones. He had this yes in His back pocket until the timing was right. On April 5, it was right.

My life has had a lot of waiting. Mostly because I can’t be trusted to say “no” to the wrong things. I need to grow in that area. When I am done and ready to move onto something else, I grasp at what’s closest. God wants me to prayerfully consider what He has for me. To wait in peace not in desperation. When I was young and single, I would have jumped at any proposal. God knew that. Even my most serious boyfriend never asked me to marry him. God had other plans. Fast forward through life and I see many moments in the desperation of waiting. It took until now to see that my “yeses” need to be bathed in more prayer and consideration.

I’m so glad God protected me from myself. I am weak. He is strong. However, He is making me stronger. This revelation has changed me. I have no doubt this job is a gift from God. It was designed with me in mind. He handcrafted this for me. How incredible are the gifts of a loving Father. More than I could have asked or imagined. I imagined something like this but this is more. That is what He does, if we get out of the way and let Him. That is my hope from today forward.

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. ~ Ephesians 3:20 NIV

Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! ~ Matthew 7:9-11 NIV

Dream Big! Pray Big!

P.S. Still figuring out my groove in this new job. I will find a new regular blogging time. Until then, keep your eyes pealed for my next blog. Love you!

Tomorrow

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Now listen, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.” Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.” ~James 4:13-15 NIV

What are your plans for tomorrow? Are you looking forward to it? Is it positive or negative? Is it neutral? Are you starting a new job? (I am) Are you facing a medical procedure? (My dear friend is) Are you going to drive your kids to school? Are you meeting a friend for lunch? Are you doing laundry? What does tomorrow look like?

I’m excited for tomorrow. I am starting a new job (more on that in a future blog). I will be driving to a new location. I will be wearing a skirt not sweat pants. I will be packing a lunch. I will be meeting new people. I have plans for tomorrow. I’m sure you do to. However, what tomorrow holds may not be what I planned. Our days can change on a dime. We have seen that this past few years. However, I shouldn’t stop planning. I shouldn’t stop stepping out into the things God has for me. I am confident that this is the job God has for me. All the details will unfold as I step into each tomorrow.

I recently heard a sermon on the passage in James 4. The pastor said, “You don’t have to say ‘if the Lord wills’ all the time. However, you need to live that way.” In other words, make plans and keep your heart open to God’s leading. He may redirect. He may open up another door. He may provide an opportunity within your planned opportunity. God is so good at placing us where He needs us and then uses us. So make plans and be open to God. Let Him direct the day and see what may unfold.

As I step into a big new tomorrow (new job), I go into the day with excitement, a bit of fear, and an open mind to what God is going to unfold. When I make plans and trust God with the follow through, it’s a much better life. When I make plans, force the outcome, and set expectations, it’s a more frustrated life. I’m not there yet, friends. I get frustrated and disappointed all the time. Yet as I rely on God, put my hope in Him not the outcomes, my life gets less complicated.

What are you doing tomorrow? Whatever it is, let God be a part of it and trust the outcome to Him. He is our yesterday, today and tomorrow.

Dream Big! Pray Big!