Mother’s Day

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Mother’s Day is a trigger for many. I have always been sensitive to women who desire to have children and haven’t been able to. I am aware of some who are estranged from their children and find Mother’s Day difficult. Maybe you are not in a good place with your mom (or never have been). For me, this year is a different kind of Mother’s Day.

I’ve already had one Mother’s Day since my mom passed, but I was still in heavy grief and expected to be sad. This year, I am thrown back into that grief in a way I haven’t experienced before. Her birthday was hard. The anniversary of her death was a tough day (I spent it at the beach). Mother’s day is knocking me out. I was in Target and I saw the card aisle for Mother’s Day. I started crying. Just typing this I’m welling up with tears. I don’t have a mom to buy a card for. I don’t. I miss her so much right now. I want her to know I have a new job and I’m happy. I want her to see and hear about my life. My friend (who lost her mom a few months after I did) made a statement that I will always carry with me: “Jesus knows, she knows.”

This is also my first Mother’s Day without all my kids at home. Two are in college and won’t be able to be home this year. I don’t like it. Not at all. My heart is sad. I fully understand the reality of their lives and why they can’t be home. I’m still sad. Empty nesters: put any tips you have on adjusting to this new reality in the chat please.

How will I handle this weekend? Not fully sure of all the details but this I know – time with God. Time with Him will fill me with enough love, comfort, tenderness, and fullness that I will be OK. I will plan a day with what I want to do and drag my youngest with me. (Poor guy.) I usually like to spend the day at the beach. Maybe we will do that. I want a great dessert. (Calories don’t count on Mother’s Day. ) I may even cry a bit. I need to release the grief of mom and the sadness/grief that accompanies change.

As a mother comforts her child,
    so will I comfort you;
    and you will be comforted over Jerusalem.”

~ Isaiah 66:13 NIV

Just typing this verse, I already feel the peace of God that passes understanding. Whatever Mother’s Day holds for you – joy, pain, grief, struggle, frustration, happiness – let Him hold you. God is with us in all seasons and situations. I’m grateful!

Dream Big! Pray Big!

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